My Heart is Broken

My Heart is Broken, originally uploaded by Nelo Esteves ~ As Seen Through Hazel Eyes.

When we first started dating, my now wife would sing me a song every time we did karaoke; To Sir With Love by LuLu.

Here's the song:

Those schoolgirl days, of telling tales and biting nails are gone,
But in my mind,
I know they will still live on and on,
But how do you thank someone, who has taken you from crayons to perfume?
It isn't easy, but I'll try,

If you wanted the sky I would write across the sky in letters,
That would soar a thousand feet high,
To Sir, with Love

The time has come,
For closing books and long last looks must end,
And as I leave,
I know that I am leaving my best friend,
A friend who taught me right from wrong,
And weak from strong,
That's a lot to learn,
What, what can I give you in return?

If you wanted the moon I would try to make a start,
But I, would rather you let me give my heart,
To Sir, with Love


On our first Valentine's Day, she gave me my first dog. After several weeks of racking our minds for a name, we came up with ToSir With Love or ToSir for short. He really enjoyed hearing me sing it to him while we danced around the bed when he was younger. Now in his older days, he was blind and deaf, but always managed to somehow find me for a good scratch and a few licks. And although he could not go up and down the steps any longer, he was never a burden to carry out to do his business that he refused to do in the house, And still enjoyed a daily swim in the pool with me all Summer, gently laying paws on my arms as I guided him through the waters.

Today, ToSir crawled behind our couch, curled up and passed away. We found him there after searching the whole house for over an hour trying to find him. There he lay, looking as peaceful as when he slept. ToSir was my first pet. He was my best friend. And I am devastated by his passing, only a week and a day after our little Angel went to heaven.

My heart is broken and will never mend.